DAY FOUR.

right now: 

i wish i was kneeling beside our bed while you say: "it's an even day-your turn to pray".

i wish i could hear you singing crocodile rock to henry as you rock him to sleep.

i wish that i could grab your face with both my hands and kiss you really good and then you pull away with a smile and say "honey... not in front of henry!".

i wish i could sleep next to you. and lay my head on your chest. that's it. that's all i want.

i wish you were here to get henry from his crib when he wakes up in the middle of the night tonight, i never seem to wake up. 

i wish we could make our sunday brunch together tomorrow. always involves bacon.

i wish we were holding hands and talking on the couch about the day we just lived. 

i wish we were wrestling on the bed with henry to get all his energy out. watching him giggle and giggle and thinking to myself, "that is my baby, daniel and i are parents to that perfect baby!" 

hearing you say, "henry's a good boy, momma."

i wish we could read family scriptures tonight. 

i just wish you were here, daniel. we cant live without you. not at all. 

h boy and i just walked through the door from being in arizona for three days seeing daddy! the original plan was to go to nyc for the weekend while dad was gone and then maybe we wouldn't miss him as much. 

yeah.right. 

after we said goodbye to him on wednesday morning, we knew that the only place we could even possibly think of going, was to arizona to see dad as much as possible. so we did, thanks to my moms southwest points we got a ticket for the very next morning. i texted emma, wife of pat who is also on the team. she said that she couldn't go to school because she couldn't stop crying. so it wasn't hard to convince her to come down with henry and i. we were both pretty pathetic. so off to arizona we went.

it was amazing. 

but as you can tell from the words above, leaving him down in phoniex and coming home to an empty house, well, its the worst. i love that man with all my heart, with every bit of my soul and and with every little and big fiber of my body. 

i just got off the phone with him and we talked for 17 minutes and 23 seconds. that is a long time for daniel boony, he isn't a phone talker. but a wonderful husband he is. AND the best kisser in the world...fyi. 

i.cant.wait.for.tuesday.

i will post pictures of our az adventures soon- it was such a blast in 90 degree weather. yes, 90. 

xo,

h