We Took The Train : spring time.

today i made oven roasted potatoes with fresh basil... ah! they were so good. i then boiled some corn on the cob and put fresh mozzarella with cherry tomatoes and basil on my plate, too. it tasted like a summer meal. we liked that. it's been sunny, but too cold to go play outside, so we have to bring spring time indoors. we picked up some flowers at the one and only steiners flowers (mom and dad's shop) and they have really helped with the spring thing. sometimes you just need flowers, ya, know?

henry and i are still dying over here because of my yeast infection. i had a breakdown with daniel last night and cried and cried because i just wanted to nurse henry again. and henry cried and cried too, because all he wanted to do is nurse with mom. we were a mess, and today we are not much better. i tried to pump last night but i barely got a tiny 2 onces. im all dried up because we never nurse! i gave it to h in a bottle and he was so happy..until it ran out about 30 seconds after he started drinking it. i felt terrible! i am on these herbs to get my milk supply back now and then more herbs trying to fight the infection. i hope it all ends soon. henry won't eat real food because he knows that if he eats it that i won't nurse him. so he won't even look at food and then eventually we try to nurse and i die because it is so painful. so it only happens about twice a day.

poor henry.

anyways, i am praying really hard that whatever is suppose to happen will happen, that, if, maybe... (i really hope not) i am suppose to stop nursing h that i will know. but i really, really hope that is not the case. i am NOT ready and i don't think he is either by the way things are going.

sorry for all the details, but this is our "jouranl" so you read it, you hear it.

last night we had a couples family home evening with two of our favorite couples. we all made some hors d'oeuvres and then sat around and talked. it was nice. henry was so funny, every time we would all laugh he would laugh, and then he would try to start the laughing, he would laugh and then we would all laugh. it was a party. and the roth's made the most delicious banana chocolate cake that i have ever tasted, we made them leave us two pieces. daniel ate his piece last night, but i choose to save mine for breakfast, when i woke up though... it was gone. i should have never waited. that little stinker ate mine in the middle of the night. i. am. so. mad. at. him.

i had rehearsal for a project i am doing in the middle of may, called city sites. today, i can barely move. i forget that modern dance uses that weirdest muscles. i kept complaining to daniel about it, and every time i would say anything he would say..."yeah right, you love it" SO true. it feels so good to move again.

tomorrow i am running 9 miles. wish me a lot of luck and a lot of strong hip flexers- those are the first to go on me.

xo,
me.