henry update

the good news is, henry went to work with daniel this morning. the bad news is, henry went to work with daniel this morning and now im missing him.

i think it's time for me to give you a little up-to-date on him.

i was very fortunate that i was able to nurse henry all the way through my pregnancy with charles. i am so impressed with the things my body can do sometimes, like make a baby and feed another baby, all at the same time. then when charles came out, henry started nursing even more because of all the new milk! the only thing better than nursing a baby is nursing two babies. #itsthetruth.

i felt like such a mother.

henry has nursed this long because i felt like we should. he still needed it. but then the day came last week, that i knew would come eventually, the day that i felt like we should stop. he was ready. (even though he thinks that he still needs mommy's milk every morning at about 4:45am, ah!).

i had a feeling we were going to stop, and every time i would think of it, my heart would physically hurt. it was terrible. last wednesday night we had a crazy storm here in campinas. tons of rain, thunder and lightening. after henry's shower, scriptures, and prayer we cuddled up on my bed and watched the storm through the window. i had the feeling that that night would be the last time i would nurse him to sleep. he suggeled up next to me and nursed and fell asleep with the rain and thunder beating on our window. i cried as i held his perfect little body in my arms. i cried because i knew that was the end of one of the most beautiful phases in my life. henry was the one who made me a mother, i learned what it meant to nurture because of him. i cried because i love, more than anything, the opportunity that the lord has given me to raise my own two, perfect boys.

and it was over, just like that.

the next night henry wanted to nurse again, but i knew we shouldn't. i let him cry in his crib as he fell back asleep. and me, well, i sat by his door with tears running down my face. it was sad and painful. 

i can't believe sometimes how much love is inside of me for that little being. when i met daniel- i had the same feeling, i didn't even know it was possible to love another human that much. then as my baby boys have come into my life, my heart just keeps getting bigger, and deeper, and stronger. i suppose this is how we learn about the endless love that our father in heaven has for us.


life is a beautiful thing.

xxx,

h

when it all began...

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